Just A Little Angst...

So I thought of writing about the latest angst in life, and in case you think this is going to be a revelation of some sort, well, sorry, and you might as well stop reading this already!

Angst during term-time, and specially near the exams tends to be pretty standard, wouldn't you agree? It's all about studies, how much one has managed to do, how much(always a HUGE amount) still needs to be done, how you are totally freaking it, losing your mind, wondering what you were thinking when you got admitted to the course, and so forth.

Plus there are the mandatory disturbances on the home front.. family 'functions' that simply Have to be attended, so what if that completely messes whatever excuse-of-a-study-plan you had; Since you are at home, the parents Always keep coming up with things for you to do, it isn't such a hardship to take a break and help out after all, right.. in my case, if I'm home I find things that irritate me all around, so I simply have to fix them right away, or else I can't study!

Since you already are in such a wonderfully relaxed state of mind, it is natural for you to vent your happy feelings on your friends, and hence there are always some lively interchanges, to normalize the effects of which, you usually need the active intervention of a third party. Hence, it is a time of major bonding!

Also, the kind of brain power that you are forced to employ during this short period can be likened to a brief spell of lightning, or even 'andheri, kaali raat mein ek maachis jali'... hence, there is a sudden spurt of supercharged thought, which may or may not actually get directed at the study material . Most often, this is the most productive time as far as arbit thoughts are concerned. Some of the most enjoyable and intriguing projects were initiated by me during my exams. Sadly, since this is a brief phenomenon, I never manage to sustain the experiments till any sort of conclusion. Sigh. Such is life.

Ok, enough tp for one day. Have to go and study.. exam date-sheet's out! And the good news is that after the initial scare of having an exam on my birthday, they changed the date-sheet so now I can enjoy my birthday! Yay!

Messages

How diverse are the kinds of messages we send each other! What fascinating information they contain! And how heartwarming it is to read and re-read them! Once upon a time, I would never have less than seventy of these in my inbox... and then, I deleted them all. I never saved those arbit forwards anyway, so you can imagine how many Real messages I managed to hoard, especially if on an average, I'd have to delete about seven or eight messages a day, because, after all, the phone hasn't got unlimited memory!

Then came a day, when I couldn't take it anymore. I deleted all but a few.. and I mean really few.. three or four.. These were messages which for some or the other reason, I just could not bring myself to delete (ah, my soft, soft heart!).

For the rest of the un-deletables, I just created a new folder!! Hehehehe... so smart, I can be! [But anyhow, that folder is special and out of discussion. ]

Gradually, my Inbox started collecting new messages, though I always managed to keep it to between fifteen and twenty at any given time. This strict resolve to have no more than that number actually made me realize what is important to me at a time, and how that changes, and becomes redundant, sometimes over the short span of a day or two.

This morning I was emptying my inbox(having been too tired to do so last night), when I came across some of those I'd still saved, and decided that they were rather precious, and should be shared!

Sim - I AM D GHOST OF CHRISTMAS FUTURE... TREAT SKT LIKE A QUEEN ELSE U R DOOMED 4 LIFE! BOOOOO... and btw, merry christmas! :P

Sim - Sim:i think i've a v cute nose
antk:yes dear, so you do!
(ok, this one i actually didn't get for a long, long time!)

Sim - THANKS! Btw u still mad at me? pl don't be, pl pl pretty pl! i won't say dat gaali ever again! pukka!

Pari - 1.Hw u feeling? 2.Talk n make up hapnd. 3. S follg our footsteps, ignoring smriti sharma as we ignord khatri. 4. They r follg each othr, aftr all! 5. Huggy.

Sangee - You are like a cup of tea: warm, fragrant and soothing!

You know, there were so many more, specially the ones from Suk... the easter messages, for instance were wonderful... However, I shall end this post with one I sent Mindy(aka mini didi)

Me - O Mindy! O Mindy!
Kya lagati ho tum bindi?
Khati ho tum bhindi?
Aur jaati ho rawalpindi?!?
Wah, Wah!