Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Variation, or a Similar Theme

Deep inside, there's something cold,
Something sharp and harsh
Deep inside, there's something warm,
Heated by hidden scorching fires
Each hiding the other,
Each hidden from the other
Pretending to have a purpose,
Pretending to have a right
To freeze or to burn
To hide away or erupt aloud..
All the while they play this game,
Nestled away still rules the Fear.


As the title says, this one is pretty much a variation of what I'd already posted, but in the absence of the time and energy to post something new and original and so forth, I decided to put this up anyway.

And oh, this was written during class one day last week, when I was unbelievably sleepy... That should explain the rather uninspired tone of the thing!! That day's notes are pretty funny actually.. there's a page of stuff the teacher was saying (hugely untidy scrawl) and then a cartoon of a kid flying a kite, followed by the poem, another half page of notes (I felt it wasn't right to ignore the teacher so completely!) and then sporadic breaks in that pious attempt at attentiveness as and when I had an interesting thought which, for once in a way I've noted down!!

12 comments:

heh? ok said...

you know, i sometimes feel exactly the same way...like i'd be two more people if i wasn't so scared to let me be.. and i miss your class notes and sitting next to you in class..i've never seen nicer looking doodles :)

ninkita said...

yaaar!!!!!!!!!1 i cant tell you how much i miss being in class with you!! you'd be horrified if you saw the extent of carelessness that my handwriting is about these days.. which is why i'm glad you didnt read it when sim was taking her sneak-peek!! boohoo.. i dont even feel like doodling anymore, except that i was so sick of everything that day!!!
:(

The New Age Superhero said...

oh! i knew it! there are more ankitas residing within u! yes! therez more than one ankita! i knew it knew it knew it! :P

ohh.. i dont like 2 feel left out.. i miss sitting next 2 u and sneak-peeking at ur class notes too :P

Anonymous said...

mujhe na comments padh kar tera poem samaj aa gaya!
haw..sabko thode baatate hai ki main na sneak kiya tere regi mein! waise sneak kahan tha sangy knew and i later told you!
and u dont miss me in classes???? :( :( :( hmmm....but then we never sat together in lsr!
acha blog hai! tu apne aap ko itna underestimate kyun karti hai! pagal!

raghu said...

**
Deep inside, there's something cold,
Something sharp and harsh
**
unhappiness.. wrath.. i nvr completely understood wat cold stood for.. i used it many times myself.. but ven i say i feel cold..i feel numb..wat do i mean.. i mean a feelin betrayal n disbelief.. somethin dark..something i want to hide.. sumthing i dont want 2 refresh in my memomries
sharp need not b negative.. harsh is.. harsh.. is wat i feel ven some1 i love hurts me..badly.
warm n warth is feel frm happiness.. genuine happiness frm small things. n frm hope.. usually i feel warth.. n fullness in my heart
so v try 2 hide unhappines frm hope.. n betrayal frm trust..
ya dats kinda true.. makes sense..as in many times we do fear hope.. atleast id o fear hoping.
to freeze or burn..hmnm ya..gain think im gettin wat dat means.. vel.. to shelve the feeling.. 2 ignore it.. or 2 let it open..put it to test.. dats wat the nex line implies aswell
oh frm the comments i think sangys tellin der r more ppl within u?
vel i hope dey ver..i dont think der r.. they r essentially just voices.. its i think my choice if i want 2 unify them into one person.. or use theam as dey r..different individuals
"they" play this game.. vel u might hav implied it as 2 ppl.. but it cud vel b jus two emotions.. two contrary ideas/ideals principals or morals.. nething
ya i havnt thot much abou fear dou.. so cant say.

raghu said...

typos
*warm n warth(warmth) is(I) feel frm happiness
*feel warth(warmth)

raghu said...

typos
*warm n warth(warmth) is(I) feel frm happiness
*feel warth(warmth)

ninkita said...

@ suk... abbe... if you'd been with us in class, you'd hv never bothered to look at our notes... an all-girls' college,30(mostly)goodlooking females around you.. think.. think...

hehe.. so cool na, it makes life more interesting.. which ankita shall i be today.. :P

@sim.. silly...i miss looking at you in class whenever something funny would happen!! and as for the poem, let it mean what you think of it, thats teh best way to read a poem, and thats how it's best going to make sense.. baaki i'll explain later, cause there is more to it than whats been discussed here

@raghu.. actually i'm rather happy with your whole indepth analysis thing..yeah, you seem to have gotten the point of it, and as i wrote for sim, a poem should mean something to you alone.. the intended meaning notwithstanding.. but you know, i'm so thrilled you actually thought abt it!!

and abt the ppl inside me.. its more abt the different parts that make 'me' what i am.. the part that wants to be mean and awful and negative, teh part that couldnt care less, the part that is nearest to my conscience, the part that is so scared, the part that is happy when i see a baby or a flower or the sky, the part that loves people, the part that cant stand people at all... ok, you get the idea.. i'm just waffling rt now!!

raghu said...

yes idea got maam.. i noe hw it feels 2 hav someone think on ur poem.. besides.. i had 2 think!
any form of art..i think.. can b interpreted.. lol
but the creator njoi it more... heehhe..the way i njoi my earphone necklace.. hahah!
im sooo bowled ovr by it!

Anonymous said...

write more blogs!!!!!!!!!!
:(
i am waiting!

Anonymous said...

Wahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
me tooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sangy! Anky! how could you both forget me fighting to sit between the two of you!!!!:(
n i miss making faces at sim during nishtha's classes or breaking into giggles!
n sim n i played noughts n crosses.
n me wondering how sangy did not miss a word of what the teacher said! n yes...anky's doodles really are the prettiest u can ever see!!!
i miss class with all of you!!!!!! :(
n esp when stuck with a bunch of 'i dont know whats'!!! i mean, they're all sweet and really nice to me, BUT...........

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