Random but Highly Informative!!

We record here a conversation between friends.. to protect identities is of course our policy!!


A: Actually what I want is to be thoroughly soppy and vent like those females I despise
but heck, I despise them.... so how can i possibly bring myself to do all that
B: Do it
A: Its disgusting I tell you!
B: Who cares?
c'mon vent... let it go
A: :)
oh well
ok I'll type it out and you are under no obligation to read any of it
B: ooh lurrrrrveee
A: ok
B: i'll read it all
A: lol
whats the ooh lurvveeeee?
:P
B: generally
A: hehehe
ok
so basically I'm feeling bored
B: tell na
A: I've been a little bored for a few days now...
basically,I think because XYZ hasn't been around much
and
as it is, I'd more or less concluded that most of it is in my head
cause I think he just likes me like he likes millions of other ppl
ok, maybe just scores...
B: what rubbeeesh!!!!!!
A: nono, first I get to say all the rubbish
then you say 'what rubbish'
B: ok.... go on
A: haan
so...
yeah, and then I was being bored
and i thought...
hmmmmmm
here am I, thinking of him
I bet he, being a boy, doesnt even think of me
even if he does like me...a little bit
which is a lowering thought!!
And then I think... who cares?!?!?
And then I think why am I taking this so seriously
Why do I have to be so sure I like him anyway???
I think that itself is suspect!!
and then...
Yeah, basically that... and then I can never figure out if he's being serious or not
And I suppose the thing that is most unsatisfactory is that I dont really know where I stand with him, though i'm pretty fond of him myself
And I hate making a fool of myself
So I dont want to be fond of him either
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok thats about it
B: ok
A: that gives us a distinct feeling of ennui
:(
B: hehe
now listen, you fool
A: ok
B: first
liking someone isn't a strategic policy decision
So, regardless of whether you wanna like him or not, you have to accept that you like him
capisce?
A: ok
B: ok
A: now wait while I internalise this
B: :)
A: ah ok....
i dig that
B: ok
now, being in long distance 'like' is even trickier than usual, but that way, the chances of it going away more rapidly if it doesn't work out are much better
because things and places around you won't remind you of him
A: achha
ok
B: third
A: you may have a point there
B: he is probably as defensive about all this as you are, coz just as being vague is good sense for you, it's good sense for him as well
A: oh ok
B: because he is also dealing with a girl who may like him, or may not, and is not too forthcoming about how she feels
A: hmmm
B: so him being defensive is fair enough
ok?
A: I think I make it pretttty obvious
B: ah but in his head, so does he
A: noooooooo
hellloooo
B: what?
A: Everyone knows abt me and the way I'm being!
B: Everyone is not the crucial factor here
Does he know is the question!!

And so on and so forth... a very instructive dialogue, I think!

Urghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

I'd describe myself as a Morning Person. I'm happy in the morning. I get over incidentals such as insufficient-sleep-once-in-a-while pretty easily when I see a happy sunrise. The only time of the day when I like going for a walk happens to be somewhere around Four thirty a.m. There is little that seems impossible in the freshness of a morning. Besides, the morning sunlight looks really pretty when it streams into my room, so there is always that to look forward to.
So why am I sitting here at Four a.m.(by any of my normal standards, the ideal time to be up) feeling distinctly displeased with the way things are? Ah, there are a few (maybe three) plausible reasons, but if you suggested them to me, I'd pooh-pooh your deductions. Thing is, while those may or may not add to my present discomfort, they pale into nothingness when we bring the real trouble to the fore.
Mosquitoes.
Horrible bloodsuckers.
How in the world did they get into my room?????????????
How many precautions does one girl need to take to be safe from them?????????????
How many do I need to kill with my bare hands before the rest of them take the hint and stay away?
Why do they have to choose to try and sting me on my face all the time????
Why don't they get misled by Sakura chan's real cuteness?? Why must they attack mine??

I think those will do for now. And you know, when you have other things on your mind, the kind that you want to sleep over, and wake up to find them solved for you.. well, it can't happen if you can't sleep!! And I'd left music on last night, but couldn't hear it cause the buzzing bloodsuckers were playing their feasting music so loud. Gaaaaaaaah!!!!!!!

In Black and White

I thought I'd see what I could do with a little b/w... Always did think it was all romantic.. I suppose I'll manage to get the romance across someday; till then, here are the results of a small experiment.




Donut! Chocolate Donut!!!

Wondering Why? Or just watching the day pass by?

Yeah, we all know where this was taken.. but I always did like the way the chairs have this cutout effect..

And That's All, Folks!! Till I find my muse and negotiate for a nice write up..

The Colours of the Day

Today, I made Palak ka Raita. For those not in the know, I have been pretty fond of this dish since those days long back when I was recuperating from a near-fatal attack of Malaria. Lately of course people around me have been hearing me going on about another 'dish' but ahem...

So anyhow, here it is, with a wodnerfully helpful 'How To'!!

After you wash the spinach leaves, dump 'em in a pan and let the stuff stew in its own juices. Then, shred the remains and place them in a decorative bowl, like so...

Then, beat some curd, and add it to the spinach, like so...

No, my fingers were not really dipped in the curd.. I reserve that kind of behaviour for cake batter. Now, put in a little salt and red chilly powder..

And mix the stuff...

Till it looks something like this, and tastes all nice and yummy!!!


And while I may remain undecided about Dish 'b' mentioned above, Dish 'a' always gets my vote for easy, yummy and healthy food of the day!!!!!!!

Deflated

That's what happens when you forget you were floating on top of a bubble. You end up inside a balloon, or who knows, maybe you bloat into one, and then the next thing you know is this huge POP sound that gives you a headache, and deflation. That means an extended downswing, till you hit the ground. Yeah, that's about it.

'Exquisitely Beautiful'

I just saw the meaning of 'Lovely' listed as 'Exquisitely Beautiful', and just Had to use that as the title of this post! It's been some days since I last came across words as striking as that.
No, no.. I don't mean to say that no one around me has used either of the two in my presence lately.. It's just that, as I was sitting to write this post, one of the things I was thinking of seemed to merit just this phrase!! The utter thrill of seeing my thoughts translated thus is, alas, indescribable!
So now, I'm going to follow my normal practice of writing in long, complicated sentences in a bid to conceal just what was so beautiful to me.. how predictable I am! I shall throw in a lot of red herrings for good measure, just in case anyone who reads this wanted to go fishing but couldn't. My good deed for the day, if you please.
So, I don't know if anyone noticed, but I've suddenly been posting more photos on this blog. The reason is that I suddenly realised how much I enjoy photography! And since I invested in a photo mag, I've learnt more about what I can do with my camera, and am experimenting everyday!
Not having got through for an Mphil in JNU this year is turning out to be a really good thing. I mean, I finally put in the effort to find out about learning weaving.. (of course I still need to figure out how to get to Bharat Nagar..once I figure out where that is..) And I returned to Pranic Healing with so much more energy than would have been possible otherwise! Most importantly, I always feel that not getting through did something very good for my ego. It pulled me down from thinking about how good I was, and made me realise that there was so much more to me, and that in fact, I was Perfect!
And now that I've got a chance to study at the National Archives for a year, I find that I'm happy merely about the fact that I'll get to study in such a pretty building, never mind that I am not too thrilled about the other people in the course! But then, even in JNU, I spent most of the first semester(and possibly longer) cribbing about how I didn't like my classmates.. ummm.. social animal, that's me! But i'll get over it, I always do.
An interesting insight I had recently, was in a way an outcome of all this stuff that's been happening, and I realised with great clarity, that the only time I felt totally healthy was when I felt loved. Now, technically, this should mean I never fall ill, considering the fact that ultimately it's pretty much accepted that there are people who love me. But in fact, this summer, I kept falling ill off and on, for about a month and a half! And but consider what made it all better!!
And then I decided to experiment a little, and see if I still felt ok without one particular source of the feeling. But ahem, I didn't. So I decided not to struggle so hard, and let it back, and what do you know, I was happy again, no more aches or pains! Umm.. actually I'm sure this is hardly a pathbreaking discovery, but still...

So many things to write about, so much time to write it in, and yet, where is the post? I mean, it's the 15th today, and I've mostly been busy doing Nothing the last few days. I've even had plenty of moments staring up at the slowly revolving fan thinking of deep things, like how much I wanted to eat chocolate cake just then!! Or even, infrequently, about some things that happened or some thoughts I had, that I could blog about.

The sad part is that I even wrote it all out in my head, and chuckled at the gags and puns... and now none of it seems to be there anymore!!!! The stuff departed from memory with the hair that fell off my head when I combed it this morning, I think.

So, I'm just putting up another picture. Yeah, yeah, i know how lazy that makes me.. just so that you know it too....

Some Stuff

I knew JNU and its environs were quite picturesque in dry, rocky and straggly-bush ways, but I'd never suspected that i'd ever get an 'ancient ruins' picture from there...

These are hardly ancient ruins, but the picture does have a certain something about it, eh?

And here's another picture, a major blur, which I like solely because of the colours... My first trip to Khan Market, when I had a delicious Chicken Tikka Roll, and then fabulous Lasagna at Big Chill..

And now I shall write another post by and by, which will probably include such scintilating strands of thought that you will be quite dazzled. Or dazed. Who knows!